This is the part of Kurts sucide note that Courtney Love wanted to people to see and she added some crap.
Hope you enjoy
God believe me I do, but it's not enough. I appreciate
the fact that I and we have effected and entertained
a lot of people. I must be one of those narcissists
who only appreciate things when they're alone.
I'm too
sensitive. I need to be slightly numb in order
to regain
the enthusiasm I once had as a child. On our
last 3 tours
I've had a much better appreciation of all the
people
I know personally, and as fans of our music,
but I still
can't get out the frustration to gather the empathy
I
have for everybody. There's good in all of us
and I simply
love people too much."
So why didn't you just fucking stay?
"So much that it makes me feel just too fucking
sad.
Sad little sensative unappreciative Pieces --"
Jesus man oh shut up.. bastard
Why didn't you just enjoy it? I don't know. Then
he goes on
to say personal things to me that are none of
your damn
business; personal things to Frances that are
none of
your damn business.
"I had a good marriage, and for that I'm grateful.
But
since the age of seven, I've become hateful toward
all
humans in general only because it seems so easy
for
people to get along that have empathy."
Empathy?
"Only because I love and feel for people too much
I guess
Thank you all from the pit of my burning nauseous
stomach
for your letters and concern during the last
years. I'm
pretty much of an erratic moody person and I
don't have the
passion anymore. Peace, Love, Empathy, Kurt Cobain."
And there is some more personal things that is
none of your
damn business. And just remember: this is all
bullshit...
And I'm laying in our bed, and I'm really sorry.
And I feel
the same way you do. I'm really sorry you guys.
I don't know
what I could have done. I wish I'd been here.
I wish I hadn't
listened to other people, but I did.
Every night I've been sleeping with his mother,
and I wake
up in the morning and think it's him because
his body's sort
of the same.
I have to go know.
-- Courtney Love--